HOT MESSES FOR DECEMBER THUS FAR
You know I want to say it’s getting better but in reality the leadership of this office is getting worse and worse. On top of that (or more likely because of that) moral is plummeting. Mine in particular is non-existent. I refuse to stay late anymore or work on weekends which means I’m behind and not motivated to catch up. I search for jobs several times a day but don’t want to jump into a crazier plan/place just because I’m going grey and see number 3) below. However there is something that may show some promise so we’ll see. I just don’t know how to get my mojo back and am very uncertain of the direction of my office other than leadership feels like its not a big deal to over work us or provide any support. No words….so I’m just trying to keep afloat as best I can and dream of doing anything else….yea not good.
2. FALLING GRANDMAS AND OTHER ITEMS THAT MAY CAUSE YOUR MOTHER TO BREAK DOWN
My little Grandma ate it this weekend and needed to get stitches in her face. My mother is doing the best to take care of her but my Uncle is really not holding up his end of the bargain. I adore my Grandma but she’s not easy-going and is definitely a handful. I want to help my Mom but I don’t think she’s quite sure what she needs. Its overwhelming and hard and I really worry about how much stress my Grandma is causing my Mom. I worry about my poor little Mama having a heart attack over all the ish my Grandma puts her through…sigh. So its hard. Literally if my Grandma could behave and listen to my Mama bear about 50% of the drama could be avoided. However this little Grandma is 94 and still fully cognizant (we’re pretty lucky) and will be doing things her way until the end and she really doesn’t give a damn. Soooo as my mother says “It’s a battle of the wills!”
3. FATTY FATTY FOOD ENTERING MY MOUTH OR OTHER WAYS TO PRETEND TO COPE WITH STRESS
Job, familia, and see 5) below all mean STRESS! Plus holidays, plans, and friends all calling are pretty much making me stress out like nobody’s business. Basically to cope I walk by the break room and see cookies, cake, bagels, and eat three. Yep, three. I feel better until I don’t and am dulling the stress with any type of foods and baked goods. It doesn’t help that I am the tiny one in my family so there’s a kind of awhh don’t worry about it attitude which just makes me feel ok about eating poorly. I would like to lose some of the weight I’ve gained these past few months but at the end of the day I’m still at a healthy weight (hooray!) but I know I feel better about 10lbs lighter. Also the lack of running just compounds my stress and holiday snacking. Plus I just can’t give up my cocktails so I don’t have room for the bagel/cookie/breakroom vices.
But yeah I totally had a vegan chocolate donut this morning…..I suck!
4.FREEZING COLD WEATHER – AKA I LIVE IN CALI SO I DON’T DO THIRTY DEGREE WEATHER
Do you see this image above??????? It was 30 degrees when I woke up this morning and the past week it’s stayed in the mid-forties all day! Today has been the “warm day.” My lovely office also has ZERO heating. This means I am wearing my outside layers at my desk as I type this. It’s freezing peeps! I am not used to days that start with 30 and end in 37. That’s too damn cold! The Bay Area should shut down if for some reason it’s below 45 degrees. DAMN YOU, GLOBAL WARMING!
5. BREAKING THE BANK AND OTHER REASONS I’M A POOR EDUCATOR
Christmas gifts make me poor. Holiday parties make me poor. Get togethers at restaurants make me really poor. I do LOVE LOVE all the gatherings and spending the moola is fun until it’s the end of the month and I’m eating ramen. But it’s not the end of the month yet so I am in DENIAL!
For now that is the current state of affairs. I’m eating an apple right now but I just polished off some chicken strips from the School Cafe so yeah….
Hope your December messes are more manageable than mine!