Stop spending money you don’t have and other grown up mistakes

I WILL NOT

• Stress shop
• Spend more than I earn
• Say yes to dinners, parties, and events I cannot afford
• Buy lunch more than once a week (baby steps)
• Be chronically late and take an uber to work
• Binge on cookies, cupcakes, or other sugar disasters provided in the office

I WILL

• Budget every month
• Review all credit cards and stop spending!
• Workout three times a week
• Make my lunch
• Eat more healthy snacks
• Drink water
• Clean room and closet on a far more regular basis
• Donate clothes I do not wear
• Write three times a week as stress relief/reflective practice

I just ordered a pizza on my credit card and ate the last of some Talenti gelato because perspective. However some Bridget Jones style life goaling was in order. July, you have fucked me over but I will not be defeated. I will take my broke ass and get focused!!!! I will get back on the hamster wheel of grown-upness and make it happen.

Tomorrow I will get on the scale, cry, get off the scale, and work out. I will buy vegetables for consumption from the farmer’s market or Trader Joe’s. I will not spend money on beautiful, expensive, organic food from Whole Foods…money that I do not have. Oh and I will buy dish soap because I should also wash dishes.

I requested off two days from work to clean out my closet and get rid of crap. I’m going to actually finish that damn Marie Kondo book.

Step 1) Bridget Jones type journaling.

Step 2) Read Marie Kondo book. Clearly reading self help type book = grown up.

Step 3) Start working out over the next week in lead up to “4 day staycation aka grown-up retreat.”

Step 4) Read Whole30 to prepare for paleo type eating in mid-August/September.

Ok, so I took off 8/8 & 8/9 on a whim based on a workshop I was at on Thursday. Let me back up, Thursday the University held a professional development conference for staff. I selected a couple of workshops primarily on balance, mindfulness, and putting your vision into action. Cheesy, I know. There was still some solid shizz discussed though and I walked away with some useful tips. One such tip was take vacation! JUST DO IT! Even if you’re broke and can’t go anywhere. So I’m having my own grown-up little staycation and going to focus on some me stuff that I want to fuckin’ tackle.

BROKE GIRL STAYCATION

1. Workout every day (maybe even twice a day). I’m going to take a Hipline class, barre method, and do some running.
2. Wash all my clothes.
3. Donate everything I don’t wear.
4. Organize closet.
5. Read everyday.
6. Drink smoothies.
7. Eat healthy lunch salad.
8. No tv (unless on in background while closet working ie Gilmore Girls on Netflix)
9. Listen to music and podcasts only.
10. Do some mindful/reflective zen shizz about what I want, what makes me happy, and ways to improve life.

That was some solid work, peeps. I’m drinking water not booze and going to watch some Great British Baking and call it a night.

Besos,

lbg

 

 

Take a breath…the world is not crumbling around you

Ok, maybe not a breath, maybe a shot of tequila would be better.

2016 was supposed to be about fitness and finances. A year where this 35 year old got her ish together and made some real progress toward my effin’ life goals. I just accepted an Assistant Director position, have been diligent about my finances (even w/ a few set-backs) and was getting ready to get my fitness back…I sit here typing this eating dark chocolate. However last night the wheels came off with some issues my Mom. It’s a hot mess and reiterates why I have to kill my debt and be in a better place to help people around me.

My mom has struggled so much with the passing of my Grandmother and never went to grief counseling despite our strong urging. My sister and I thought recently she was doing better but some self destructive habits have come to light. It’s a little bit of a mess right now and the hardest part is that she lied to my sister and has not been honest.

Thankfully, my new boss isn’t in the office until next week and I’ve completed all my tasks so I have some time to help my sister deal with all of this….it’s really just hard and crazy. Hopefully things aren’t too bad but I won’t know until I get down there later tonight. It’s overwhelming but I’m trying to keep a level head. Last night, there was some serious rage, drinking, and crying. You know just the usual Tuesday night. Damn, why does being a grown-up suck so DAMN hard. Seriously!

I have a conference in Santa Barbara for the first few days of May and will be in Portland the second weekend, so the timing is craptastic. Of course, all the joy is being sucked from these things because I’m stressed and will probably stress eat. Only making my clothes even tighter….DAMN…See once again, being a grown-up is not great.

I need to remind myself to read up on loans….see depressing.

Alright, I’m off to microwave a sad sack lunch and attempt to not drink at lunch.

Besos,

lbg

April, Prince, and tears

Dear April,

You have been a mixed month of crazy. Allergies, opportunities, and unexpected outings have all lead to a massive month of breaking the bank. I’ve been working late nights which means there has been zero fitness. April is really just all about morbid obesity…and debt. BLARGH!

It’s really just time for an April update list.

1. I got a new job! Holla!
2. They needed me start right away which meant that I started working LATE! Most nights…plus I had to work on Saturday 4/16 for my old job (couple of hours) and Sunday 4/17 for my new job (similar)…so I worked 12 days straight. EXHAUSTION.
3. As a result of all this working, I bought food (unhealthy & fast) and did not meal prep. There was no time for fitness….so all my clothes are tight and the scale scared me the other day. BLARGH!
4. Working all the time means my house is a lair of filth….the RAT KING lives here. It’s sad but true.
5. As a result of leaving my job, so so MANY unexpected expenses, outings, etc have just fucked my budget. It basically went out the window….and crashed into a million pieces on the street below.

I’m super excited about the new job though!!! It’s the right move despite bad timing and I won’t be broke and fat forever so you know….Monday is a new day and I will start to pull it together at that point.

I just wanted to drop by and say I’m alive…working non-stop with nothing interesting to report. Perhaps, just that Prince died and it was my first day at my new job and DEVASTATION. Also I didn’t know my new team well enough to blast PRINCE and be sad and say we should all drink at lunch…somehow I thought that might be frowned upon. I’m so sad as I type this….Prince, no! He played a few shows in Oakland not too long ago and I had a homie tell me in advance but I opted out of getting tickets because I’ve been so focused on my budget. REGRETS!!!!! I thought I had time! He was only 57! Anyways, rest in peace and power Prince, you will be greatly missed. I will leave you all with this jam and my favorite Charlie Murphy story of all time.

Sad bastard abrazos,

lbg

 

 

 

I’m old but that means lots of toppings & one nice couch

  

  
The adventures in getting old continue, I’m fairly certain being 35 means that I can only successfully go out one night a weekend. This would be depressing except that as a 35 year old I have a fabulous couch. A couch that I really like lying on and watching tv instead of being at the bar and wanting to lay my head down on it at 12:35am. I still had an awesome time in the city with my young 30 year old girlfriends but tonight I’m happy to be home.

In other old lady news….  

I have truly been ignoring my fitness. Like in every way possible. I ignore the my fancy barre studio, weights at home are dusty, and instead I just eat frozen yogurt with lots of toppings. It’s delicious but clothes are tight and I’m broke. That pretty much means I need to get back on the damn treadmill. So I’m putting this out into the interwebs, 21 days of fitness. Even if it 15 minutes, I’m committing myself to 21 days straight of fitness starting April 3rd…. Because it’s like 9:00pm at night right now. Once again, bringing sexy back! But seriously sexy leaves so quickly like after 2 weeks. 

 

I’m continuing to come back to my 2016 theme of finances & fitness. In terms of finances, I’m still here, beatches! I work on my budget, each month and track my spending even when it’s over. I make notes in future month budget tabs so I can plan appropriately. It’s had its ups and downs but the biggest difference is I’m still trying. I really want to kill my credit card debt, and then I’ll attempt to figure out my crushing student loan debt & improve retirement. However one thing at a time!!! Or I’ll just effing cry.  

2016 finances are all about killing the wicked credit card debt and saying no to things I can’t afford. I said no to destination November wedding and another trip. Go, me! It sucks but I really want to end 2016 in a stronger place financially… Even if it means kicking it with my couch more. I was toying with the idea of trying to pick up a weekend job like at Whole Foods for a few months to really help but decided to wait & see what happens with the interview process for this other job. 

The more I read about debt, it seems that a lot of peeps pick up side hustles, so we’ll see.  

Sunday, you’re going to be a game changer! There will be laundry, house cleaning, meal prep, and firness! Success will be mine!!! Or at the very least I will say no to the frozen yogurt…. Ok, I won’t get toppings.

Besos,

lbg 

Losing should come with beer

Adulting fail.

 
Sometimes you just to have admit you’re ‘effed and stressed. Proceed straight to having your private meltdown. Complete said meltdown and then begin to strategize your heroic return…ok maybe just your minimal plan to save your ass as best as possible.

Right now, I’m in work meltdown mode. Monday will be problem solving, drinking crazy amounts of coffee, and staying late. Today is all about being a sad bastard that I am failing at life.

 
January is almost over and I succeed at one thing, being the best maid of honor ever! My sister was glowing, blissfully happy, even in her crazy. Success! Everything else in my life is crash & burn.

Budgeting = wedding expenses, I failed to anticipate that put me over. Blarhh! It could of been worse but I wish it was better.

Working out…. Miserable fail. I made it to barre like 4x this month just ridiculous!  

Bringing lunch hasn’t been too bad. The week back from the wedding wasn’t great, I only brought lunch once but I made decent choices. I’ve cooked most of my dinners which means cheap and healthy – woo woo! Next month, I think should be solid. I’m golden when I meal prep on Sunday or Monday night. Otherwise shenanigans ensue. I still managed to lose .3lbs this week so holla. Right now I’m fit and healthy. Attending 15 barre classes in December was the best challenge ever! But there’s this vanity 5-10 I’d love to lose. But it’s vanity so pass the cocktail.

February we’re going to turn this around… I am budgeting in a haircut. I needed one in November but had nightmares of terrible hair in wedding photos so I waited. I rationalized that although grown out & crazy I could curl my current hairstyle and have it work. Plus I would have like 90 min to do my hair on the wedding day. 

Now though I need something I can style in 20 min or less and be on time for my job. Thinking of this but slightly longer.

 
One last note, reading  nourishes my soul and lets this little broke girl travel the world for a mere $9-$15.00. It’s easy to get away from it but in 2016, I want to read more. When I curl up with a good book and a hot coffee, I’m in heaven. Oh and my cozy Mexican blanket. I breezed through Crazy Rich Asians last week by Kevin Kwan. It was beyond pleasurable! Gossipy, jet set, and lavish. He transports you into a world of excess with historic Asian family lineages, rivalries, and familial protocols. You won’t be able to put it down. Sadly, the follow up novel, China Rich Girlfriend, attempts to cover too many story lines without the depth of the Crazy Rich Asians. I was less invested and disappointed overall. You should definitely grab Crazy Rich Asians for your next beach vacation or home staycation to transport you away! Pass on the second and spend those pennies on a bottle of wine to go with your book. 2016 – two books tackled! 
Alright I’m off to continue with my meltdown.  

Beso,

lbg

Iced Coffee or Die!!! Oh yah, I’m back

HOW HAS IT BEEN TWO WEEKS???

Sorry Interwebs…I am a constant state of sorry but blogging doesn’t keep the lights on and my tummy full.

Let’s catch up, shall we?

CLASSPASS

My Pure Barre membership ended and it was time for something new. Don’t get it twisted, I so so enjoyed my time at Pure Barre. It was an adjustment at first since it differed far more than I expected from Bar Method. The cardio aspect is heightened in Pure Barre and you will work up a sweat. I experienced some small but great changes in my body from the beginning of the month until the end. If the monthly membership wasn’t $225 (yikes) per month, I would have kept it up.  As a result I jumped on the ClassPass bandwagon with it’s budget friendly $100 price tag.  Also bonus points, Pure Barre and the Dailey Method both have studios in my hood that accept ClassPass.

ClassPass does have some downsides though, you can only sign up for a class a week in advance. The release all new classes on noon each day for the following week. Basically if you work out a couple times of week, you have to always be logging in. Inconvenient but not terrible. If you cancel a class less than 12 hours from the class, you face a $15 cancellation fee. BLARGH. If you no-show, it’s 20 bucks. AGHH!!! That said your membership fees could jump up quite quickly if you have a lot of unexpected events in your life or meetings go long. This is definitely the biggest downside.

The other biggie is that you can only take a maximum of 3 classes per studio a month. Now, there are tons of studios in my neighborhood and I did the research to ensure that there were at least 3 studios I was likely to attend with classes that fit my schedule. I figured if I attended 8 classes per month it was worth it but 10 would be ideal. If there aren’t enough studios in your area, ClassPass really won’t work.

I’ve hit up the following so far!

• Corepower Yoga Sculpt (heated power yoga with weights) – Core Power Yoga
  • I’ve done Bikram yoga before and this was way way CRAZIER and harder.
  • Class description: A total body workout, CorePower Yoga Sculpt classes are set to energizing music and designed to tone and sculpt every major muscle group. This class complements your regular yoga practice, while boosting your metabolism and pushing your strength and flexibility to new heights. Free weights are added to the CorePower Yoga 2 (C2) sequence, creating resistance and intensifying each pose. Strength-training exercises such as squats, lunges, bicep curls and tricep curls are incorporated to build lean muscle mass. You will see visible results in your body. Class is heated (92 – 95 degrees) with little added humidity.
• Total Body Burn (TRX) – BURN
  • Our unique Method draws upon the very best aspects of Pilates, Cardio and Strength Training to create a body sculpting, heart-pumping 55-minute workout.
  • They even have a little video
  • So….yeah that KICKED my ass. I didn’t love it but I definitely know I was getting a good workout. If I keep ClassPass, I’m sure I’ll go at least once a month.
• Shimmy Pop – Hipline
  • Straight from their website: A Hipliner can expect each choreographer, trained in different disciplines from ballet, Afro-Hatian and Hip-Hop, to lead the class in dancing to the moon and back, every time. Placing value on the concept of ‘whole health’, Hipline is a place to not only come and dance at any level, but to belong. Offering classes in Shimmy Pop, a one-hour Choreographer led dance experience and Power Pop, a conditioning class to support muscles and movement in Shimmy Pop; the studio’s approach to fitness is rooted in celebrating the female body’s strength and beauty at any stage.
  • My Thoughts: I’ll be back! It’s basically a dance party in the day time or on Friday night for old ladies like myself. I have so much fun and you get hella sweaty. It’s a win-win but you have to be willing to get a silly and not be super intense about instruction or form. No one’s coming over to correct your posture and at several points in the class you’ll have some free dance/movement. Without a doubt I’m gonna hit my 3 times at this studio and it’s a good one to schedule when you don’t want to work out. The fun level without a doubt will make you commit…well and that $15 fee.

SISTER’S BACHELORETTE

I’m planning this and initially there was some stress but it’s coming along. Now it’s just trying to stay under budget….these things aren’t cheap but I only have one sister and I’m determined to have it kick ass.

But so many deposits…on my credit cards…arghhhh…I know I will get it back but still so stressful….remain calm.

BUDGETING

It’s going…I still suck and go over but I’m getting better. Baby steps, right?

LABOR DAY MADE ME EXTRA BROKE

Drinking and ubering everywhere all weekend broke my little pocket book. It was way way too much fun and after 5 bars in San Francisco, I felt like I maximized my going out. I planned to stay home for the rest of the month but then my Dad came to visit and that lead to some winetasting, more ubering, and a brewery spot….yep, I’m grounded for the rest of the month due to self induced poverty.

RUNNING…..hello…is it me you’re looking for?

I still haven’t run post marathon….I haven’t really had the urge but I’m sure it will come back.

besos,

lbg

Shame, budgets, and other things to drink about….

My barre instructor shamed me…..

I mean not my actual working out but that I wasn’t going to sign up for their studio. Don’t get it twisted I’m really enjoying pure barre. I would describe it as more of a cardio type barre where you’re sweating, dying, and looking around like who the ‘eff are these fit bitches??? All to really good music, I mean they hosted a Bey Day and all the workouts were to Beyonce. You can’t not love that. However as we all know the lbg is in debt crisis mode. I mean I’m not a hobo but I need to get my expenses in check and am on the slow, slow, journey of paying of credit cards – BLARGH.  Did I fail to mention their studio price for one month unlimited is $225!!!! I know, hot damn. For a 10 class pass, it’s $200 bucks. When I was a member of bar method it was $175 a month (w/ more classes offered and to be honest a nicer studio) and that was rough on my budget.  I mean it was a luxury but saved my life since my Grandma was hella sick and in general I was under mad stress. We digress, I’m not joining pure barre.

Anyways, fitness is my therapy and I’m just not the type to tell a stranger my problems when I can just work it out. It’s mostly stress. Trust, when I had some real issues my booty was seeing a counselor and that hella helped. People, you got to do you. So absolutely no shame in getting some quality therapy. Right now though I need some stress reliving fitness more than anything else. My budget therefore will make room for classpass with it’s sweet $100 a month price tag.

Working out is my friend…I feel 100x better when I get my ass to the gym or on a run. Although me and running are on a serious break. I did a marathon (still shocked) so I think a little break-up is in order. You run for 17weeks straight and trust you’re ready.

I also am planning my sister’s bachelorette and that’s gonna take a whole heap of funds. Next month, it looks like ramen noodles….okay not that bad but close. I gotta stay on track. Sometimes you just have to drink wine at home, have a party with yourself, and know that things will somehow work out….even with that young 28 barre studio owner is shaming you.

Yes, I’m dancing alone at home to David Bowie….dance, magic, dance….

besos,

lbg

34 Stories of running, empty pockets, and April showers

Being 34 is exhausting. I have a strong feeling it has to do with all the drinking, eating out, and socializing that came with my birthday. Somehow I can’t seem to catch up on my sleep and running this week has been nil. I mean the last birthday happy hour was Monday and I think I’m focused on fully recovering at this point.

Sunday was the She Is Beautiful 10k in Santa Cruz and I ran a solid 55 minute race, holla! It drizzled a little during the race but it felt so refreshing and gave me a little boost as I ran through Natural Bridges. The race was sold out and it definitely felt that way, the shuttles arrived late/moved slowly, and I was unable to make it into my time corral. Despite all this I still had a really good time. It was overcast but still such a great day to be near the ocean. I love being at the beach and running, I mean c’mon just add wine and you’ve got perfection. I’ve run this race 4 years now and I have to say I do miss the smaller feel of the first years but it’s still a lot of fun. The energy is so positive and everyone is really friendly. The theme of embracing your own beauty permeates throughout the entire race. It’s a great race for first timers, walkers, and families. The post race festival was beyond over crowded so we grabbed our shirts and headed back to our hotel.

May feels right around the corner with my trip to Hawaii for my homegirl’s wedding, soon July will be here, and I will be headed to Budapest for another wedding. It’s so exciting but stresses me out a bit too since financially I’m in such a shaky place. For Hawaii, I’ve paid for my ticket and my hotel which is great. I just need to work out a budget for while I’m there. For Budapest I have about of a third of the ticket cost saved but I’m going to throw a chunk into savings with my April paycheck so that we should be able to buy our tickets in May.

I need to really work on my financial security, 34 make me feel like 40 is around the corner, and I would like to be able to retire someday. I was out for jury duty during the Spring Retirement Session but I’m fully planning on attending the Fall session so I can see where I’m at and what I need to be contributing moving forward for my future old lady adventures.

Between my student loans and credit card debt, I feel a little crushed. Having the two weddings this year really hurt my credit card pay down plans although I haven’t added to that debt so small victories. I just need to sit down with my boyfriend and review my budget and our living expenses. I love where we live but we pay a ton in rent and I don’t know if the second bedroom/office was the best investment since he uses it less than anticipated. I don’t know….I just know that I need some help because clearly the choices I’m making on my own financially are not making sense.

Oh yeah and I dropped my phone pretty badly in Santa Cruz. It’s holding on but that’s another cash money purchase that will need to be upcoming. I did not mean for this post to be a broke ass thirty something entry but there you have it. I mean if you can’t be a financial sad bastard on your own blog where can you??

2015 the theme word was INSPIRED and my action item is appearing to be to ask for HELP.

 Basically I’m Sandra Bullock in 28 days. I heart her.

April is the get serious month, peeps. We’re bringing the fitness and healthy food back with a vengeance. We will be in Hawaii swimsuit countdown and I want to look and feel good….I say this as I eat mac and cheese. I’m drinking water at least. Thank baby Jesus for that much. I also will be getting serious with my Marathon training – LOOK OUT!!!! Let’s set up some April Goooaalllss!!!

APRIL GOALS

• DRINK ALL THE WATER!
• Run 3- 4 times a week
• Plank for core strength – goal 20 out of 30 days this month!
• Stay within my budget!!! Just say NO to spending
• Work on cleaning out my clothes closet
• Bring my lunch to work also known as saving money!!!
• Read a book

I’m serious here, kids. It’s time to put the two week long birthday celebrating behind us and get back to reality. I’m considering a sugar detox to help with the eating and hopefully the race this Saturday will be perfect for a Marathon Kickoff!!!

I’m heading to Livermore on Friday for the race expo!!! So excited and did I mention there’s wine tasting!!!!??? 13.1 tastings to be exact. Isn’t that clever.

Alright my peeps, it’s time for me to call it a night and tackle some chores.

Besos,
lbg

Broke Runners Unite!

It’s been a while, Interwebbies, sadly work calls and someone has to attempt to pay the bills around here. It’s a pathetic attempt but I am doing my best avoid the poor house dance. Seriously, money and budgeting are not this little brown girl’s skill set. I’m going to be 34 next month and I’m starting to really feel the pressure to get my financial life in order. Any tips, books, or blogs that helped you hit your financial stride? Post some recommendations because this lbg could really use them!!

In other non-sad bastard news, I did my first double digit run of the season!!! I ran 10 miles this Saturday and had my first negative split!!!! This is in large part due to the fact that I actually ran with some strategy as opposed to my usually just running. I read an article discussing marathon training and phasing parts of your run…I’m doing a horrible job explaining. Just go here: yes here. I mean, don’t get it twisted, I love running and being outside, and for me there’s almost something meditative about it. My musica, my thoughts, my body all kinda blend and it works for me. However with all this marathon talk and reading….because I’m a nerd and need to read about ish, I’ve realized you probably shouldn’t just try and run a marathon. Actually strategy should be employed to help your body out. Who knew?

Right now, I’m just going to focus on getting to the Livermore Half and after that race I’ll be employing a training plan with some small modifications. I’m a little nervous about running 4 days a week, truth be told. I figure I’ll manage but eek…small eek.

Last week looked a little something like this:

M – 3.3 miles complimented by yoga & weights
TH – 5.1 miles
SA – 10 mile run!!!

This weekend, I will be headed to Mill Valley for a friend’s wedding and I’m super excited for a chance to have mini getaway with my bf. It should be super pretty although chilly this weekend.  We’ll be near Muir Woods so I’m hoping on Sunday to do a little wandering and enjoy all the nature. City girls love nature, I just don’t know if I could live in it but visiting is always nice. I will probably run on Saturday before the wedding because ya know….hungover running is not winning. Although I am attempting to not be hungover just to have the perfect wedding buzz the night before with no side effects right??

Oh yeah, I lost 2.5 lbs last week! Hooraz but this weekend there was brunch and we went a little crazy plus there’s been healthy takeout but take out none the less. The boyfriend and I are both putting in a lot of hours at this time of year which means no one wants to cook. We exchange the sad glances of no..I don’t have that kind of strength to cook and clean…and actually the kitchen is still dirty…yes, please call the Thai place. BLARGH, so not good for the waist line and don’t forget I want my waist line to look good in Hawaii!

Alright peeps, I’m out. Have a kick ass Tuesday and if it’s not kicking ass just add more coffee. You got this!

Besos,
lbg

There’s no Italy, India, Bali just some book therapy and new running shoes

I had a mini meltdown yesterday. Just a mini one, not one of those full sized meltdowns where you quit your job, or cut off all your hair, or make an insane purchase that is non refundable. There were thirty-three year old tears of how did I get here and is this what I’m supposed to be doing and how are the next thirty-three gonna look??? In hindsight, that is a ways away and of course it’s overwhelming. Pretty much every weekend from Thanksgiving until January third, me and the boy had plans, family obligations, holidays, etc. I think I just need a mental health day.

Probably one of those eat, pray, love moments or some kinda of fancy yoga retreat but we all know that’s not in the budget plus all my vacation days are promised to the four potentially five weddings I have this year. Yes, that’s where all my $$$ is going…I swear.

My sister’s texting me I need to talk to my Mom about tying up some legal issues, I have my performance evaluation coming up at work, I’m trying to get all the crap out my diet, and adjust my schedule so I can actually cook & work out. So yes, it feels like a lot is going on but A LOT IS ALWAYS GOING ON. I need to get some zen. How are some people wired to take everything in stride? I mean I’m pretty laid back but the kindergartner sized laundry pile bums me out a bit. Plus I think I need to realize that until I get my own washer and dryer, laundry is a weekend activity for me. KNOW THY SELF. WORD.

So in true Bridget Jones fashion and getting with my 2015 word – INSPIRED – I hopped onto Amazon and ordered a few books. One on working, another that was outdoorsy inspirational, and a good ole fiction book. I love books and there’s nothing better than hot coffee and an entire weekend snuggled up with a read.

I should be writing more about the mini meltdown but maybe I’m not there yet. Letting all my emotions out has never been one of my strengths. I’m the smile now, cry later type….and I’m preferably crying over a movie (but not) alone. Seriously way easier for me to be ok to cry over Stephen Hawking (Theory of Everything) than my own damn problems. What a hot mess I am!

This weekend though I am making NO PLANS! Just time for me to do laundry, read, and get in some much needed mileage. I did break down and pick up a new pair of running shoes. I think my shoes are not what they were…granted I got them in March 2014 and have done three halfs in them, so yaz probably time. Thankfully, I had a gift card so those bad boys were free!!!

It’s getting late and I need to function like a non-melting down adult and get some rest for tomorrow. It’s ok to get kicked in the face, we just have to get back right? Even when it’s our own selves mentally kicking us. Sigh, I’m a crazy pants but it happens from time to time.

Besos,
lbg